Today I stayed in my nighty till 1pm.
Why? Because that’s what felt good for this moment.
Seems like a who the eff cares sorta thing, right?
Cuz’ it does not ultimately effect anything.
But that’s not true.
It effects everything.
Because its all about my vibe.
About how I am feeling right now.
The other day I was out at my community pool…
(And f-ck yes! We are happy our community is opening back up.)
And the water 💧 was so freaking cold.
My youngest two kids were yelping for me to get in the water and play and I was really not wanting too.
Willing yes.
But wanting…. not so much 😕.
I did want them to be happy.
I wanted to enjoy a fun moment with them.
But as I ventured into the cold depths of the pool I felt my body tense. My limbs tightened,
My heart ❤ starting beating faster and I found myself holding my breath.
I was now constricting my energy.
I was withholding my truth.
I was locking myself up.
And I felt frustrated that I was in this coldness.
My ego instantly started to play its games with me…
“You need to smile and bear this, don’t let them see your pain, frustration, or lack of wanting to be here.”
“You have to do this.”
“F-ck! This is too cold. Wish they did not want to do this.”
And my emotion to these statements?
Bitterness.
Frustration.
Shut down.
And as I got splashed, and jumped on,
I grew sad because my body was hurting.
And I was feeling trapped.
I was feeling like I had no choice or that if I stated my truth that I would upset my loved ones.
Which was NOT the emotion that I started this afternoon with.
It was however the emotion I was choosing for this moment,
By the actions I was allowing myself to take that I was not a 💯 percent too.
And so….
I also, in this action 🎬 allowed my vibe 😎 to totally be changed.
And if left unacknowledged,
And consistent action to follow where I chose to what perhaps I was willing to do,
But not willing,
Then my mood would stay low vibe.
My emotions would be darker, full of blame,
Irritation, and…
My energy…
It would remain constricted like my body was feeling from the 🥶 cold.
I would remain tense to life.
Tense to my desires.
Tense to those I am around and love.
Tense to my truth.
And then you know what 😳 happens?
I end up magnitizing and manifesting more things into my life that cause me to remain constricted.
More things that I may be WILLING to do…
But am not WANTING to do.
And so instead of living this life the way I enjoy 😉 the most,
Which is in ease and flow,
With tons of laughter, play, connection, joy, love, abundance of good shit…
I would shut it all out.
Granted my little tale to you today is only that…
A tale.
It was a flicker of thought and emotion that went through my being and announced the path that I was potentially stepping on.
But I recognized it.
I saw what those seemingly meaningless thoughts and emotions were saying.
And so I got my booty out of the 🥶 cold.
I went and did what felt good.
Laying in the 🌞 sun.
And my week has been gentle with me.
Full of what I enjoy.
It could have been different.
And often people come to me with a desire to live their f-ck yes life, and they want to know HOW 🤔.
It always comes down to these seemingly meaningless moments.
These thoughts and emotions that are left uncensored,
And how they will lead us astray.
So if my tale speaks to you today.
Here is your HOW.
Here is what you MUST start to realize.
And what is most important.
Do what you enjoy.
Don’t be led astray by what you “think” you need to do to appear a certain way to anyone else,
Or to make someone else happy,
Especially if you are a F-CK NO!
Time to get really baby.
Time to know your truth.
Its with you always,
You just have to listen and act from there.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”
Let’s do this thing luv.
You and me.
Stepping into who you really are and claiming your F-ck Yes!Life now.
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