A spiritual path is not meant to “fix” who you are but instead to “reveal” who you are.
So stop your MF processing around the path.
How much do you have stop and stare at the rocks, the weeds, the trampled flowers, the horse sh*t that was dropped and anything else that you deem to not be pleasant and an imperfection to your path?
Granted I am not telling you to disregard your sh*t.
That would not be good for sure,
and we can easily look out into the world of the energetically blind and deaf who do just this ALL THE TIME, and see what A-holes they are,
but what I am wanting to bring your awareness too is that perhaps you are actually using your “processing” of your sh*t as an excuse to not move forward.
As a reason a.k.a excuse/blame of the outside world and past events/people so that you can lean out of your power right now and just sit in your victim status.
Maybe, just maybe you are thinking that all is forgiven in your “working through it” and that because you are oh so responsible and aware of your sh*t that the world should just bow to you and be okay with you NOT GETTING THROUGH YOUR SH*T…
Because you have been working’ it.
You have been doing the damn THING that you know you need to do,
it is not your fault that it’s just not seeming to get through to the core.
Well, I get all that.
Hyper-Critical of self for sure here!
Analyzer and Overly responsible for self and the world here!
Yeppers, those are all me.
And they are always me even when I write up musings like this one handing you your sh*t back.
I write this because I feel responsible,
I want to help,
I am speaking to myself as well,
and I get the “awoken mindset” of processing is key to growth and transformation.
After all, you cannot change the things that you are not aware of, right?
So now that you are aware of your sh*t,
and if you are a relatively intelligent person,
or at least can get some basic common sense,
then WTF makes you believe that by standing in the epicenter of your sh*t and focusing on it, digging through it, and smelling it much longer is going to ever clear the path and make you perfect?
Let’s just ask,
“Do you honestly believe that the path or you were ever intended on being perfect according to our idea of perfection?”
Would you ever learn a damn thing if the path was perfect?
Would you really be happy if you believed yourself to be perfect?
Would you really want a relationship with a said “perfect” person?
Life is about clarifying who we are.
Life is about growth and expansion, and growth and expansion ONLY occurs when we can learn, gain knowledge and insight, have experiences, and gain wisdom.
Wisdom among other things comes from mistakes.
Or you could also say CONTRAST.
Contrast is another way of looking at the life that we are manifesting and the life that we desire to manifest.
What we perceive as good and bad.
And we cannot have, nor even truly know what we want if we do not ever experience what we do not want at some level. When we experience these spaces of growth and learning in the contrast of life it makes us want for something better and it sets us to a grander vision for who we are.
That expansion creates room for us to manifest in what we learned that we wanted from the contrast that was provided.
And we easily manifest it when we RELAX into the knowing that it is ours when we sooth ourselves back into a feel good place in our hearts and thoughts.
Now let me ask you this…
How does processing make you feel?
Does it excite you?
Is processing and over analyzing your every pile of sh*t soothing to your soul? your thoughts and feelings?
Or have you discovered that all the processing out is actually just causing you stress because NOW you really see where you have been f-cking up and the more you focus on your f-ck ups, the more insecure you are feeling in who you are, your path and your choices?
I am betting it is the latter here. (Just sayin’)
So what are you to do if you don’t want to keep repeating some sh*t on your path,
but you now sorta realize that your hyper focus to your sh*t is causing you to remain in your sh*t and even creating a neediness and lack of personal responsibility that is in turn making you out of integrity with WHO YOU REALLY ARE?
Are you ready for it?
Here is my big answer for ya.
Stop trying to be like someone else.
Stop trying to get it all right.
Stop fearing who you are and JUST DO YOU.
You have got to accept and love you in all your sh*t,
or you will run around this life with everyone avoiding you because YOU ARE AVOIDING YOU.
If you are looking to the outside world to give you direction as to who you are then that is the sh*t pile you need to turn and walk away from right now.
Find your soothing thoughts.
Appreciate the contrast of your life.
Follow what feels legitimately good to your soul,
and stop acting out of fear of losing people or things.
It has you over processing you.
that will get you into a pile of pity, victim sh*t like no other.
So JUST STOP.
SAY IT WITH ME….
MY OVER PROCESSING AND SELF-CRITICISM IS KEEPING ME OUT OF PERSONAL INTEGRITY AND SOUL ALIGNMENT.
LET THAT SH*T GO.
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TIME TO TEAR DOWN THE MF WALLS OF YOUR NEWTONIAN WORLD
Some days I am just sick and tired of all the bullsh*t that I hear, see and even think myself. Getting lost in all the fear of what is to come and not wanting for the past to repeat itself… well not at least the sh*t that was no fun.
But how is it that we can ever break free from these fears?
How do we break the bondage of our past,
because the reality is that we often KNOW what we are going to get from any given situation in life.
We have been down the road before,
and when a similar road presents itself then we get triggered emotionally to it and we just know what we know.
And often we know that it ain’t going to work out the way that we hoped for.
That person is not going to be all that we “think” they are.
That job is not going to be as great as we want it too.
People are people no matter who they are, right.
That’s why we end up dating the same person over and over again even though it’s a different body.
That’s why every year we keep having the same results with our health efforts or our financial situations.
Because the world is always the same.
And WE MAKE IT SUCH.
We live in the illusion of the predictability of the Newtonian world.
Claiming that we are living in alignment with our souls.
That we are living in integrity.
Or that we are WOKE.
We wake each morning and start our day with the same rituals as the day before, same times, same habits, same scrolling through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or even our dating apps. Then off to some news as we finish our coffee and then go shower and head out into our pre-planned agendas.
And we argue that THIS is just how it has to be.
Not realizing that in our belief about this predictability we are actually creating our LIMITATIONS around everything that we proclaim that we want for.
That these rituals that we all do, are actually creating comfort in what we do not want. Our physical bodies due to the predictability of our lives are programmed to respond emotionally, neurologically and mentally at the same times each day in the same patterns because of our “need” of comfort in what is familiar to us.
Now many people today call themselves WOKE.
They are aware of the world around them and that the thoughts they think play a significant impact on the life that they are living and that their emotions are the gauge to if they are living on purpose and from soul or if they are straying from their truth.
They are spiritual.
They are soulful.
They are WOKE.
Alas, they look at their lives and they wonder why they still do not have the love, the money and the life happiness that they want for.
Turning to the belief structure that they are paying some karmic debt, or that they are building some spiritual muscle and that once they “prove themselves” then they will be worthy of the love, money and happiness. Or they simply believe that spiritual and woke means you are above the need or desire of any of these things.
Still at their deepest heart, they want for it.
And they too, live by the programs created in the body, the mind and the emotions to continuously create the same reality as yesterday.
MAKING THE MOST WOKE OF PEOPLE AVERAGE AND ORDINARY IN THEIR SELF-PATTERNING.
Maybe you are guilty of this yourself.
Or maybe you got it all figured out.
In truth that is one of the greatest deceptions of the human ego,
believing that we got it all figured out.
Believing that we “understand” and that we are “doing what we need/should be.”
Believing that we are some enlightened being.
Now, granted you are an enlightened being.
You are your own guru.
You sure AF don’t need me or anyone else preaching to you the 1, 2, 3’s of how to have the life that you want.
You got all the answers right there in that pretty mind and heart of yours.
Your issue is that you don’t see that you have all the answers.
You don’t believe that you know what the next step is for your life.
YOU ARE MF AFRAID TO CHANGE THINGS UP!
here you are.
Doing the same damn things that you always do.
Accepting the newtonian world and all its predictability for your reality, then crying about how things never change no matter how hard you work at it, no matter how much you journal, meditate, go out and look for new people, push your boundaries, practice this or that, read this or that, educate yourself, exercise, eat good food, etc.
As long as you sit back and expect that predictability to become non-predictable and do something different without you taking the reigns and accessing the quantum reality of your life with a little analytical focus, then you will continue to be right about everything that you probably don’t want to be right about.
You have got to become aware and understand why you are trapping yourself in the same thoughts day after day.
You have got to slow the f-ck down and start to analyze instead of just reacting to your emotional waves and all the “feels” that you have.
You have got to see, I mean really f-cking SEE how your internal world and your expectations and rituals in it are manifesting your physical reality.
You have to actually get sick of your own BullSh*t!
sure there is bunch of sh*t going on in our world right now.
Our world society is full of fear.
Our world economy is questionable.
But it’s just a bunch of malarkey if you are buying into that any of what is going on has a true impact on the quantum realm,
where your true reality is.
It’s your expectations and beliefs.
It’s your comfort with suffering and keeping what you don’t want familiar,
that is keeping you on replay in your life.
I was just chatting with a woman yesterday that shared how she had one of her highest income months as an entrepreneur in February of 2121, she made over $84,000 in her little at home business.
But the economy sucks you say.
No one can afford anything you say.
It’s the wrong time to start up a business you say.
I was just chatting with a man last week that was so excited, he has been unemployed for 2 weeks and he was starting to buy into the BS of COVID making jobs hard to secure, but just two weeks in he landed his dream job,making almost three times the income that he was all these years when the economy was not impacted by a pandemic or political upheaval.
But you cannot find work, you say?
That you are overqualified, underqualified, it does not work like that?
I was just speaking with a woman that is part of my Manifest Your Man Workshop and she was sharing how she has been on so many yummy dates lately. How connective the men are that she is meeting. How she really feels like this is the time of her life to meet her true soulmate and she is seeing so many conscious men coming into her options.
But I suppose that if you are among the many singles out there you may believe that people are not dating right now.
That people don’t want to take time or money to go do things.
That there is nothing to go do even for a date.
These are all your MF programs that you have locked in and that keep you safe in your newtonian world.
And this is what is stopping you from living the life that you say you want.
The love, the money, the life happiness,
IT IS THERE FOR YOUR HAVING.
But You are the only one that can take down the walls to your predictable world of comfort and suffering.
If you are ready to take action reach out to me,
if not, cool beans.
Keep doing you, like you are.
loving you from the quantum field of open possibility.
Stop Existing & Start Living
Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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WHEN SOMEONE WANTS YOU TO BE SOMETHING THEY REFUSE TO SEE WHO YOU ARE…
Over and over again I am reminded of just how blind we humans can be in our relationships.
And then we wonder why people shut down, walk away or get upset with us.
But it is often because we are blinded by our own desires and beliefs of who people are and how we want them or expect them to show up in relationship with us that creates this disharmony.
Recently I have been blessed with the opportunity to witness numerous people in my life sharing with me how they perceive me. Who they think I am, how they think I should react or expect me to react, what they believe my desires are in life, work, and even in my intimate relationships and more.
And it is interesting and saddening to witness these people do just this because I sit here realizing that the reality is that no matter how much I show up differently then what they believe,
no matter how much I communicate who I am RIGHT NOW, or what my desires are, what my boundaries are that they simply cannot hear me and actually believe often that it is not them but me with the communication issues.
I have served my fair share in the land of not communicating well.
I have had my issues with boundaries and stating what I am a F-ck Yes too and what I am a F-ck No too,
and I have moments in my current as well where I drag my feet and try to read between the lines or make the best decision that will cause the least amount of hurt feelings, be the best for someone else and put myself on the back burner….
(I am human and all and get caught in my own crap. Shhhhhh…. I get it…. I know better. I do.)
But at the end of the day,
I have looked my shadow self in the eye many a time,
I have felt into my ego and called it out of the darkness and see it for what it is more frequently then not,
and when it comes to speaking up and out on things,
well often I don’t give two sh*ts and just state it as it is.
So in this understanding of the timid young woman that was the wall flower just a little over decade ago who would get trampled by many, to the woman that I am today that has a deep understanding that I am only responsible for my emotions, thoughts and actions and I cannot make anyone else happy,
I find myself in awe of so many people in my life who simply refuse to see who I am.
Old lovers, spouses, friends, children and even clients have recently revealed how they are stuck in an older version of me.
To the point that they REFUSE to see or allow any sort of change in my pattern, even when it is so vastly different right in their face.
But WHY IS THAT?
Why do we humans refuse to allow others to change?
Why do we ignore who someone is, trying to become or even acting on being in any area of their life?
The answer in my opinion is pretty f-cking simple…..
BECAUSE IT DOES NOT SERVE OUR BEST INTEREST IN OUR MIND OR DOES NOT GRANT US WHAT WE WANT FROM SAID INDIVIDUAL.
If our drinking buddy who has been our wing man for the last decade suddenly sobers up and gets married,
then where does that leave us?
In our life and choices?
If they start to make changes and different choices that do not support what we are wanting then no matter how happy we may be for them, we find ourselves feeling lost and lonely suddenly.
And the reason is that we are looking for some form of our happiness, our fulfillment to be met by this other person.
And in order for us to have what we want THEY NEED TO STAY OR BE SOMETHING THAT SUPPORTS THIS VERSION of who we want.
It has nothing to do with the other person and everything to do with us.
We can say that we want the best for someone else,
and I have heard that statement a lot over the 100 days,
but when it comes down to it we will tell our loved one that they are overreacting, that they are not seeing things straight, that they are having a midlife crisis, going crazy, are no longer fun or are now being anti-social. We will find fault in their actions, demeanor, thoughts and feelings and when they share who they are and what they want from life we will unconsciously plug our ears, close our eyes and act like a four year old by chanting nah-nah-nah in our heads and never notice that we are doing any of the sort but instead turn around and tell our loved one that they got it all wrong, it’s this way and not that. That they want this or that instead.
To take it to extreme levels,
its like we are raping our loved one’s.
And what I mean by that is that it is like the rapist that tells the woman that she is wet when she is dry and that she is turned on when she is terrified and then thanks her for making him feel so good.
Now granted that I know that this is an extreme,
but the truth is that anytime when we refuse to see who someone is showing up as, refusing to hear their words and tell them that they are the ones who are not communicating or saying something else, or tell someone that they are just this or that when they are not, what we are doing is denying that person in totality.
We are making our desires and views of who they are more important than who they really are and we are forcing our will on them.
We all are guilty of doing this in life and in relationships.
First we must recognize this fact.
We are all blind to the people in our lives and we get caught up in who we perceive them to be.
That is why it is so true that perception is reality.
When perception becomes so strong often the person who is making the change falls weak after time and just gives into what “everyone” is saying and believing and the only true way for them to get away from said perceived reality is to fully disconnect from those who are stating it.
So I ask you today,
Where are you believing that you really know someone and in truth are actually not allowing them to be them?
Where is your blindness in the relationship?
And As Always,
Stop Existing And Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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THE FUTURE IS ALWAYS BRIGHT…. NO MATTER THE SHADOW OF THE MOUNTAIN.
Recently my life partner and I drove up to Pikes Peak in Colorado together. It was bitter cold out, the fresh snow lay everywhere. People flocked to sled and enjoy snow ball fights.
The crisp winter wind felt amazing on my flesh as I stood there looking out over the valley that lay at the base of the peak.
I recall at one moment, standing with my partner’s arms around me. We looked out at the vastness before us,
and I could feel the message of the universe in that moment.
There we were, in the shadow of Pikes Peak, a great mountain blocking the rays of the warm sun, a crisp snowy breeze blowing around us, and we felt limitless in that space.
We felt grounded.
and in love with life.
Clarity in what we wanted and the path that we had chosen together was our guiding light.
Just like the miles that stretched out in front of this mountain were sunstruck, warm and bright, so was our future.
And I was reminded…
That you cannot always pre-map out the journey.
Often great things come unexpected.
YOU WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU BELIEVE IS YOURS.
If you believe that your possibilities are limitless,
then they are.
If you believe that you are surrounded and held in love,
then you are.
If you believe that you can live a life of abundance, adventure and joy,
then you can.
The problem is that so often we choose to own our worst nightmares.
We choose to focus in on what we don’t have and accept it as our reality,
we purchase that for our life destination and journey instead of what we claim that we hunger for at our souls level.
And THIS REALITY IS SO THEN.
You may say that you did not plan for all the shit to happen,
that its not in your plan or picture to stand there without a great love in your life,
or to believe that you always lose in love.
You may claim that its not in your agenda to create financial destruction,
the loss of house and home,
divorce, strife and health issues,
but honey, the reality is that you are looking for it.
This time of Covid has proven to me just how many people leap at the opportunity to jump into their victim status,
I see so many people wanting to test positive for the Rona,
” I am sick. I must have the Rone.”
or blaming the economy because of critical times for their financial pictures,
their relationship stress.
Their “inability” to get out and do things,
for their weight gain, poor eating and sluggish habits.
Well if your hidden agenda is to be a victim,
then guess what luv,
YOU WILL BE A MF VICTIM.
And you will stay in the shadow of life,
in the shadow of all those who choose differently.
You will stand there,
and be a spectator to others thriving,
because you planned to be limited by life.
YOU EXPECT TO BE LIMITED.
And you will only ever get as far as you plan.
Or you could open up those plans to the possibilities that YOU ARE IN FACT LIMITLESS.
Unless, that scares you too much, of course.
Because that might require you to step out of the herd,
and grow a pair.
That might demand of you to go digging deeper inside yourself then you have ever gone before.
That might require you to look good and hard at your inner demons ,
those thoughts, fears, desires, and opinions,
that are holding you the f-ck back.
Now granted you can continue down that path you are on,
you can plot it out,
step by step,
and you can prepare for the worst case scenarios in every which way possible,
and you can stand guard.
Pick your MF armour up and be ready to battle life at every perceived turn,
and sure that might not be bad,
if your goal in life is to survive it long enough to die anyway,
and look back at a empty path,
where you retreated and warred with anything that caused you to expand.
With anything that asked you to trust in your heart and soul.
That required you to have it to leap and open your wings.
Sure you can get by like that.
The majority of folks do.
But thats all they do,
And sit there in the land of spectatorship.
Wishing for something more.
Questioning why others always have, do and create.
Not feeling fulfilled.
You could do something a bit differently and step out of the crowd.
You could realize that the valley before you lit up with all that radiant glory,
is yours for the taking.
It will just require you to have a higher perspective on life.
To tap the f-ck into your truth,
and to have enough courage to say F-ck Yes! To You.
This Is not average and ordinary living.
What I am proclaiming and believe is accessible and our right as humans is to live limitless and THRIVE.
That we each are worthy beyond measure of just that.
That our dreams and desires are set before us not to tease us,
not to cause us disappointment in life and self,
or point out our lack or inabilities,
but instead they are put there,
FOR THE TAKING.
They are there because they are rightfully ours to begin with.
They WILL REQUIRE us to become a match to them.
They will require that we step out of our comfort zones.
They will require that we expand,
that we open ourselves up to our limitlessness.
They will without a doubt require that WE KNOW WHAT WE WANT.
And the courage to gain all that we want and feel that depth and level of fulfillment,
well it will only come when we stop standing in the way of our own sunshine as Waldo Emerson said.
Because the reality is….
That most of the mountains that we believe are blocking our path and our great plans,
are only us standing in our own sunshine.
Time to set yourself free baby.
Time to know your truth.
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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IF YOU EVER LOVED ME.
If you ever loved me you would not let me hurt like this.
If you ever loved me you would rethink your actions.
If you ever loved me you would take the time to hear me.
If you ever loved me you would want to share.
If you ever loved me you would give me closure.
If you ever loved me you would make this all go away.
And so many other if you ever statements.
Boy, oh boy do I ever understand the pain of loss.
The pain of break up, divorce, seperation, being lied to and abandoned.
I understand how it feels when our worlds crash,
when our beautiful plans seize to exist,
and it all seems like it happens within a flash of time.
How can this other person who loves us,
or at least proclaimed that they did,
or at very least said that they cared,
just walk away?
How can they turn their backs to us and just keep on living their lives?
Don’t they care?
And so the story of love and loss goes on throughout all time.
And so our hearts expand and we are elated when those that we love are turned toward us,
and when they are no longer by our side we crash into pain and suffering. Feeling abandoned.
Feeling as though we spent all this time in a lie.
It just cannot be so.
It certainly is not fair or right,
and we don’t have it coming to us.
I mean how is it possible that this sort of thing could be of our own doing?
“THAT” other person made those decisions,
acted that way, said those things and lied to us,
after all. We would not bring this upon ourselves.
Well I can tell you this beautiful,
YOU MOST CERTAINLY DID BRING IT UPON YOURSELF.
One of two things happened.
Your vibe either went up past the other person or it crashed below them.
Either way it held there for a long enough period of time and was a great enough difference in frequency that the two of you were no longer in alignment and thus the relationship had to end.
So which direction did you go?
This is actually the important thing to question if you truly give a sh*t about your future and who you are.
If you love yourself that is.
And so many people just don’t.
Hope that this is not you though.
You can tell what direction you went by looking at your thoughts,
your feelings and your actions.
If you are the one who leveled up your frequency then this relationship transition will be pretty smooth and easy. You may be in pain, you may feel a tad lost, you may want closure even but at the end of the day you will recognize that the most loving this you can ever offer someone is space to expand, to be them and to have a beautiful life with or without you and in this case it means without you. That may be a stinger, but a high vibe soul will walk away in love and know that the lessons offered in that relationship were powerful, perfect and have helped them gain clarity in who they are and what they want. A high vibe soul will know that what they need to do now is turn their full attention to themselves and clearing out anything that no longer serves them from within.
A high vibe soul will be in appreciation and gratitude for the relationship and the break up.
Yep I said that.
Gratitude for the break up,
because they see its purpose.
However, a low vibe soul will flounder in pain, suffering and blame.
They will demand attention and stomp around like a three year old having a tantrum. They will act out in childish ways, trying to cause pain in hope of gaining attention from the one they lost. They will not be able to take responsibility for their part in the transition and they will feel as though they simply cannot move forward until the other person does this or that to clear things up for them.
They will focus on fear and they will want the other to feel pain as well.
They will not see the growth and opportunity that the transition brings with it, but instead see destruction and attack.
A low vibe soul cannot see past their own ego to find the love that was there in the relationship and still remains.
A low vibe soul is caught in their own inner hell where they will reside until they choose to view life differently and take responsibility for the events, thoughts and feelings that are all thiers. They will be destined to repeat the drama that they believe is happening to them over and over again, where they will mask themselves from their beauty, their core and alignment to God all in the concept that “it’s not fair.”
So you see beautiful,
It is very important that you know what direction you went in the transition. It says bundles as to where you are now and what you are manifesting for your future.
It shows just how much love you have for yourself and whether you understand how powerful you are.
Because you are powerful.
You co-created this transition for the purpose of becoming more of WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
No matter the direction you went ( up or down in frequency) this fact remains the same.
Now the only thing you need worry about is not if the other loved you, or still does, but if you love you enough to let go and thrive.
You are so f-cking worthy of a F-ck Yes! Life.
It’s time that you recognize that and see that ALL relationships are here to elevate you, educate you and clarify what you want and who you really are.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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A hunger that you just can not fill.
This has been something that I have been playing with the last few months.
that’s not true.
It’s been something that I have been dancing around with for years now.
And I am f-cking hungry!
Which makes me irritable.
Makes me depressed some days.
Makes me look out into my life and question all that I have and all that I want,
and makes me look at what I am blessed with and say,
“Is this as good as it gets?”
I sound like a spoiled rotten bitch though when I say that.
And perhaps I have become one.
maybe I am supposed to be one.
maybe you are too.
Maybe, just maybe we are all supposed to want for more in our lives.
In our love and in our sex.
But the fear of being perceived as greedy,
and not appreciative stops us from going after what we want for.
The fear of what others will think.
That is the leading sabotager of our dreams.
And damn we are really good at finding reasons that we cannot be fulfilled in life.
Why we “should” settle,
and why we need to just shut up, sit down and stop searching, stop craving, stop wanting.
We are great at thinking that there is something wrong with us,
that we are bad people because we want for more.
Especially when we are a people of so many blessings.
The reality though love is something totally different.
The reality is that the way that this universe and God evolve and expand is through our wanting.
Our desires birth into existence everything that we currently have and everything that will ever be.
The issue with our desires is that they make those around us uncomfortable.
Especially when we start speaking about our sex and money.
These two things we are damned for no matter which way we turn.
If we want more of them then we are damned and greedy, we are sluts and only focused on gratification of self.
If we want for less of them or allow less of them in our lives then we are told that we are not worthy of everything else in life because we don’t have enough of these two things which means that we are unattractive, stupid, weak, disliked, etc.
So no matter what we do, when it comes to our sex and our money we are f-cked and not in a fun or good fashion.
So what can we do with these unholy hungers that we have and we run and try and hide from but that creep up and make themselves known in the most inopportune moments?
How do we curb our cravings to have the love, the sex, the money and abundance without feeling shameful and guilty for wanting more or better? Or any for that matter.
Or for wanting to change things up and play with what we have to try and create something more robust and expansive?
First we have to KNOW…
I mean truly KNOW with all the certainty that we can muster up that WANTING is natural and healthy.
The craving for something is a showing that our soul wants it for us as well and is already in pursuit for it and has found a path.
The negative emotions that stem from our craving of wanting something more and better reveals that we are out of alignment with our soul and with our power. We would not be able to feel this negative vibe if we were in alignment.
You see when we are in alignment we feel f-cking great.
We are focused,
we are clear minded,
we feel powerful and turned on to life,
We have confidence and are loose in our life, able to flow toward what we are wanting because we are allowing ourselves to be taken to it versus constricting ourselves and causing ourselves to get caught up in worry and fear.
Next we have to realize that ALL things…
Did you read that?
ALL THINGS CHANGE.
They must change.
In order for us to grow,
to gain what we claim we want,
in any subject area of life,
we must allow for evolution to occur.
We cannot have what we want by remaining the same person that we are today.
Even if we have a dynamic relationship,
a bank full of money,
great health and everything that we “think” that we can want for,
we still must allow for evolution to happen within ourselves and our lives as well as within any one of these areas if we want to maintain the area and/or expand/heal it.
You will never find happiness by insisting on things to remain the same.
Just like you cannot expect things to remain at the same level of connection,
the same level of turn on,
or anything else.
Life has its storms,
These storms are about you developing your ideal version of you.
These storms are something for us to learn how to move through in confidence and love,
and that in the storms of life,
we must expect that things will pull from us or push up against us and often this will feel uncomfortable.
But the discomfort is there to alert us to the areas inside of ourselves that we need to learn to lean more into,
speak more truth from,
see more authentically,
reveal in vulnerability more,
and to trust and love on.
These raw spaces that get revealed are the spaces that evolve us to our highest potential.
And thus create the life that we want.
Bringing our dreams into reality.
And it is saying that it is time that you start to pay mother f-cking attention to your SOUL.
It’s time that you start to take notice of that hunger before it becomes a ravenous beast that will destroy you and everything in its path to getting fed.
I am hungry.
I am craving more in all areas of my life and I have an amazingly full and abundant life.
My cup runneth over for sure.
And I want to keep it that way.
Because the truth of the matter is,
only with a full cup can you truly share without fear,
and help others.
Only by valuing yourself to the levels that God values can you give your gift in this world.
And only through the pursuit of evolution through love,
of self can you grow your soul and experience happiness.
Because happiness is not about the things that you have but who you become gaining the things that you have.
Who are you today and what does your tale say about your journey?
Stop existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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