I CAN’T SEE PAST YOU.
I am going to get real with you, raw with you, vulnerable and share something that scares the shit out of me today in this musing.
I sure am not, but here we go anyway 🙂
I recently let down my guards.
I recently decided to just drop the fear of letting love penetrate me to my core,
I recently took down my shield that was protecting my delicate hungry heart,
and I allowed my soul to lead me right into possibly the last relationship of my life.
I possibly opened the floodgates to something that I have craved for, desired and sampled in ways in the past but did not actually believe was possible,
or thought oh that will happen in my golden years if I am lucky.
Folks, I can’t see past him.
WTF am I to do with that?
Never before have I not been able to see a life past someone.
Even my deepest loves in my past I could see life past them,
without them, it may not have been what I wanted for or desired but I could still look past them and know that there was more,
something greater, deeper, more elevating and penetrating.
And here I sit today with the realization that I can’t see past him.
I can’t keep ignoring the words and feelings that rise up in my core,
my soul screams them, my eyes communicate them, my heart shakes and makes me know its desire and to make matters worse he just keeps confirming all of it to me in soft ways and direct ways.
I am done with looking for the gotcha’s.
Done with trying to find what’s wrong, why it would not work, should not work, cannot happen. Done with giving a shit about what the world says….
Sorta taking a Bonnie Raitt approach to this and just going with,
“Let’s give them something to talk about.”
Because the alignment is too f-cking damn good to ignore and turn away from any longer.
I AM ALL ABOUT THE ENERGY.
Everything is energy.
It’s the most potent, important thing when we are looking at anything in our lives. Especially when we are looking at relationships and building a F-ck Yes! Life.
It’s not just chemistry.
Chemistry can fade.
There is New Relationship Energy (NRE) that we all have on the front side of getting together with someone, and it typically lasts anywhere from six months to 3 years if we are lucky, but then it fades and we start to see our partners clearly and as the humans that they are.
We can feel alignment when we are meeting in the wounds of our life and they are sinking up with someone else’s,
We can feel energy when we have physical attraction, mental stimulation, emotional bonding or a feeling that someone “gets us” but true energetic connection goes deeper than all of this.
Real soul alignment is more than that feeling like you are seen or understood.
Energetic Alignment in Intimate relationships is about elevation of the souls.
And it comes from a place of your core.
It comes from two individuals being aligned to who they are first without each other.
Not needing each other, but choosing to add the cherry of the relationship into their already damn good life picture.
True soul alignment is a feeling of coming home.
And when you reach that feeling of coming home you most likely will not be able to see a relationship past this one that elevates you into wanting so much more from life and yourself.
Soul based relating is about expansion in love.
It is about reaching your edge and knowing that you can go further because you are limitless and together you are limitless.
It’s a love that extends past time and space.
My experience over the last six weeks of my life is one of great momentum.
Going zero to 300 you could say.
A hundred years traveled in a little over a month,
the feeling of making up for lifetimes of lost time.
A merger of energy so great that I simply don’t have words to describe.
A shattering of my heart that is breathtaking and welcoming.
And here is something I have recognized in my work with thousands of people through the years who have been through this process of coming into soul aligned relationships of this depth and magnitude:
You can see the steps as to how you arrived right where you are at and how f-cking perfect everything is. How the synchronicities, the crazy little coincidences, how people, places and timelines guided you to this moment, to this relationship and how had you chosen differently you would have set things back or even missed it.
YOU HAD TO BECOME A MATCH TO THIS ENERGY.
And that is the truth.
We forget how WE,
Yes, we and only we can do this for ourselves. That we have to become a match to the person that we want to call into our lives.
All this talk about soulmates, twin flames, etc….
and the thing that we forget to realize is that we only get to have these powerful, dynamic fully turned on passionate and limitless relationships WHEN we choose to do our damn work and get rock solid in our core as to who the f-ck we are and what we want in life.
We have to be unwavering and selfish MF’s to get our energy aligned to this kind of empowered relationship.
Until we do so,
we spend our time learning about ourselves,
about what we want and what we do not want.
We take ourselves through the school of love and relationship and gain our education into SELF.
And then if we become self-aware.
If we become “woke” as some would say,
then without reservation, without even trying you find yourself just lined up to the most precious, yummy, juicy, fully absorbing, ignited relationship that you can imagine.
You will see how you were sampling pieces of it in previous experiences. You were being given the gift of being able to recognize this relationship quickly when you finally decided to become a match to it.
And when it comes for you,
there will just be a KNOWING.
The questions stop.
Your ego may try to put up a fight,
it may attempt to sabotage out of fear of getting hurt again,
but under that you will still have this undeniable feeling of CERTAINTY.
And the world won’t matter.
Your fears will not hold a candle to the power of your heart.
Other opinions, judgement, perceptions you will just turn away from without worry,
because you will just KNOW.
Like you know yourself,
you will recognize this soul aligned relationship.
And you will continue to run forward in faith and enthusiasm.
And you most likely will not be able to look past this relationship.
Beautiful isn’t it?
Intimacy share dear reader:
I sat here the other morning, alone, drinking my coffee, breathing in the crisp morning air, feeling this soul with me energetically even though we were not physically together. I closed my eyes and saw his. And with a breath I fast forwarded through this life,
I sat at the doorstep of death and I took it in.
I felt the goodbye of the physical and I felt his hand in mine.
And I welcomed it because it was a spectacular sharing of a lifetime,
and I knew that not even death could take this from us.
It’s powerful and pure.
It’s limitless and it is what we all crave and desire.
We may settle for logical, smart and fun.
We may settle for “good enough.”
But we always remain hungry until we access our core and get aligned and right with self.
And then leap in faith into life and let ourselves be carried to what we KNOW is home.
“I can see the rest of my breaths in this lifetime in your arms.”
Yes I can.
I encourage you today my love, to look deep within yourself and ask yourself if you are settling or contemplating settling for just “good enough” in your relationship, in your love?
How does that knowing that you are settling make you feel?
Sit with that for a second if you can.
Stop making excuses.
Stop looking for the reasons and focusing on the fear of what if…
Instead know that you are worthy of a great penetrative love.
You are worthy of accessing heaven and experiencing a soul merger that you know at your core can be so,
but you currently have no knowledge or relationship with.
You must be willing to meet yourself though.
You must be willing to let go of your ego based loving ways,
you’re codependent habits and desires,
and you must be willing to be complete and whole in WHO YOU ARE FIRST.
This is your work.
This is the only earning you will ever have to do.
Become elevated to who you are and that soul aligned relationship will magically appear overnight.
what you desire and want,
wants and desires you too.
It’s time that you say F-ck Yes To YOU Love.
Elevate your love.
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