There I was,
our flesh touching.
The water lapping around my breasts and shoulders.
I was breathing the moment and all the feeling of floating into my being.
Taking it in,
feeling as though the universe was asking for me to open even more and allow the deep penetration of my soul to occur.
There he was,
resting next to me, his hand on my thigh.
I could feel his breathing as it caused ripples in the water.
His body was smooth and his desire was present.
There he was,
by my side,
breathing in the wind.
His arm touching mine,
soft and smooth.
And the water washed over us.
The wind in the trees before us was dancing and asking for our surrender.
My desire was to touch,
to exchange breath,
to become entwined.
I wanted to allow myself to be seen and felt by him,
I wanted to feel his hands caressing me.
I wanted to touch and let my love be felt through the sensual stroking and playing of our skins enveloping each other.
I wanted to feel.
Feel past this physical state of being.
Feel through the emotions,
the fears and the concern.
I wanted to penetrate life by embodying this moment fully and dropping deeper into surrender.
My hunger was present,
a ravenous beast rumbling within my groin,
within my heart my soul rattled in the cage it felt placed about it.
Breathed into this container known as my physical body and asked my chest to relax,
I asked my soul what it was desiring to achieve from such a state of vulnerability and desire?
And my heart leaped,
it called out to the winds,
it wanted to dance naked in the moon light,
it wanted to swing in the hammock and howl at the moon.
It wanted to be taken.
Taken into the galaxies and be blasted from every startling.
It wanted to be shed of its chains,
its fears and its silly conditions.
It wanted to defy society and the labeling that was upon me.
It wanted to love.
To love him.
It wanted to love fully and authentically.
and it wanted to tap back into that space,
that yummy space that it had known once before and SURRENDER to the call of this wild woman that wanted to open her wings.
My soul knew as it knows today in this moment the power that can transcend from moments of bliss,
moments of utter transcendence.
It knows that when you can come together with your soulmate,
when you can drop into truth without fear or need to control,
when you can access love,
that you hold all the power.
That here in this space you are the key master.
And all one ever needs to do is choose a door.
This space I speak of is not found in sex.
It is not found in meditation nor prayer.
It is not found in work or what we might refer to as purpose.
It is not found in any relationship or nutritional plan.
It is not found in text books or doctrine.
This place I speak of is ONLY discovered through the greatness of your ability to soften and let the universe take you.
In the sensualness that moves through you at times like this,
no matter what the act that you might be performing,
you are moving with the magical essence and flow of the divine.
Here from this state of embodiment you are using all your senses.
You are not a trapped prisoner to your thoughts,
not holding your emotions out of fear,
you are not touching or acting from a state of control or even desire,
you are just being.
This is the expanded expression of the human experience.
This is what we are meant to explore.
But we bunker down,
we armor up,
we hide and we fear.
In our hiding and fearing we feel loss and suffering.
We gain the illusionary belief that we own one another and that we are to remain small.
We buy into the concepts of not enough and control.
And we search for purpose,
he hunt for joy and connection,
and we do it all with limited connection to self.
We come into our life moments with zero to no understanding of self and we lay blame to all those we dance with for the way that we feel.
We hide our hearts out of fear of getting hurt,
we shut down our voices and our expressions as to not damage anyone else.
We lift up the heavy shields in hope that we can prevent future wounding….
And we feel EMPTY.
We feel lost.
And we question why?
Why can I never be happy?
Why do I always end up right back here?
It is the shield.
That amour that you carry.
The weight of fear and judgement.
The sword of control.
Those are what keeps you from receiving all that you want for.
Those are the demons that you bare.
Soft and subtle.
Fluid and entwined.
The sensualness of a soul surrendered,
a heart opened and body unburdened.
Here is your bliss.
Here is your power.
Here is the naked truth.
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