WE RISE AND WE FALL…
This is the cycle of love.
This is relationship.
We lean in and we reveal our deepest aspects,
trusting to be fully received, to be held and loved,
here in this space where we are willing to sacrifice ourselves so often to hold onto love,
to hold onto connection.
The feeling of love that whafts over us,
lifts us,
carries us and seems to heal our wounds,
heal our fears,
and make us have faith again in love,
in relationship,
in ourselves and in others.
The feeling of love has us want for more closeness,
makes us want to take away the space between ourselves and the the one we have put our attention toward,
we go deeper,
and we open in faith that this other human being will hold us safe no matter what,
we feel as though they will always choose us over anything else,
including themselves,
and we drift.
We drift into our delusions away from the truth,
away from our core,
away from reality and in this moment of believing that they will always choose us over even themselves,
we give away our power.
We lose ourselves.
And thus we lose the relationship.
For in the rise of what we call love,
we create our own suffering.
We cling to this other human making them our everything,
and we forget who we are.
Soon, we swirl and twirl within ourselves,
losing our footing,
and becoming whatever this other needs us to be,
instead of standing true to our core.
We start to lie to ourselves,
we tell ourselves that we do this or that for love,
that we must be something that we are not,
and that that is just how life is,
how love is and what is expected.
Our lies to self eat away at our core,
our spirit becomes enraged and feels suffocated,
but we continue the process of being,
being what our love needs of us.
Sharing our ideas,
sharing our hearts,
sharing our soul,
becomes less and less and we become a vessel of empty space,
empty space that leads to poison of the relationship,
of the love that we cherished so deeply.
And we fall.
What lifted us into the heavens,
what washed a smile over our face,
what lit us up and made us want for more,
now has us hiding.
Now creates pressure that we cannot breathe under.
And we fall into our own inner abyss,
fearful to share.
Fearful to damage,
fearful to hurt self or other by speaking our truth,
by leaning back into the space that we know we must go.
To stay alive,
to awaken from this pain body that we trapped ourselves in,
we must,
we must decide to choose us over the love,
over the other,
over everything.
And we lean in.
We lean into the raggedy edge of loving self,
enough to be true to our core.
And so we stretch into the awkward space that we had abandoned,
the space of US.
Here in this container of our soul,
we retrieve the lost aspects of who we once were.
We tap back into knowing our core,
and without warning we breathe in and find our world crumbling.
The love,
the relationship,
the other,
shatter.
The version of who we were for them, for the love that we had sacrificed ourselves for,
had believed their inauthenticity of loving us through anything,
of supporting us of being strong in our power,
in their claims of wanting all of us,
in holding us,
become clear once we choose coming home to self.
Coming back into alignment with soul.
Knowing our core and igniting ourselves from that space.
Yes now…
now that we are breathing,
now that we are feeling our core,
aligning back to soul,
that love,
it is no more,
and it appears that we are falling,
when in truth we are rising.
And what we were blind to was the reality that while we were choosing the relationship over our core,
that that was when we were actually falling.
True love is to lift us up to our greatest potential.
True love does not require us to step away from our core,
from our truth,
True love does not shame you for who you are,
true love not not desire to destroy what it fears,
because love does not fear anything,
least of all the rise of the soul.
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To all those who sacrifice their core selves,
who step away from their soul and who they are,
in the name of love and have found themselves lost at the end of the day.
Love never expects you to be anything more or less then who you are.
Love expects you to love self first and most,
can hold your truth without reason or question and will never lie to you about its desires, or provide false hope in lieu of getting what it wants from you: You to conform to it.
Know thyself.
Love thyself.
Never second thyself.
And speak your truth even if it means goodbye.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”WE RISE