😏I WAS NOT GOING TO SHARE THIS PHOTO…😳
I was not going to share this photo with you because I took it just for my man. I wanted to keep it intimate and private, for no other’s eyes.
You see I took it one morning a few weeks back after he had gone to work. We had enjoyed a most connective weekend together as we usually do and he had worked out in this shirt that I am wearing the day before.
The shirt smelt like him.
I was missing his essence.
I was missing him.
And like I often do in moments like this, I grab this particular shirt of his and wear it all day.
THIS day I wanted him to know that I was taking him everywhere with me. I even wore his sweaty workout shirt to my office to do client appointments….lol
AND SO I TOOK THIS PICTURE AND TEXTED IT TO HIM.
As you can see, there is nothing to see with this picture.
So outside of the fact that I took it just for him, why would I have an issue sharing this picture until today?
Why would I even be bothered?
After all, my business is to be vulnerable with you.
Share details, stories, thought provoking ideas and educate you on soulmate relationships and how to best go about manifesting that deep love, commitment and connection that all of us hunger for.
The answer to all of this is in your understanding that until my man walked into my life and made himself known to my soul, I have never felt a need to protect an intimate relationship before.
I have never felt territorial and protective.
I have never had the thought,
🙏”This relationship, this moment is sacred to my soul and must be cherished and protected.”🙏
I have been an open book for the most part about my marriage of almost 20 years, my divorce, my affair in that marriage, the rape that I expereinced, the open relationship that followed that marriage and all the men that I have dated and explored. I have taught classes on open/poly style relationships, I have taught on “living the orgasmic life” and how important transparency and freedom is. I have shared all of myself with my followers at this level and those that I have worked with over the last almost two decades.
And now I share my heart and soul about truly being elevated by a soulmate love like I never thought was possible. I had read about it.
Heard about it in the many spiritual books and studies through the years that I had done and I craved it with every fiber of my being.
Craved it so much so,
that I attempted to believe that I had it in another and was heartbroken when I discovered how fake that relationship was.
And did not believe that it was possible or that I was deserving of it so much so, that I allowed myself to settle into a few relationships that were so out of alignment to my soul that all I can say is that those were insightful lessons of self-discovery that I could never have deliberately searched out.
Thank heavens for those rocky relationships and all that I experienced there and learned. Because the reality is that without those relationships and tough lessons about self and soul alignment, without the universe stepping in and breaking things up the way that it did, I would not be aligned to my man today.
😳I WOULD HAVE MISSED HIM.😟
And in truth, I did miss him…
You see the universe is a strange and humourous place.
Both him and I lived a few times over just blocks from each other as we bounced around the Seattle area doing life there in the same years.
We frequented the same coffee locations and stores.
We might have spoken in a line while waiting on a latte.🤣
Then somehow we both found ourselves in Texas.
And we found ourselves in a wound from a relationship.
Both lost in our hearts and souls, armoured up to the point that when we actually met, we did not recognize each other at that deep soul level.
The armour was so heavy that we pushed away from each other without recognition or pain, only to go do our own work on self.
And this is what we did.
We each worked on ourselves.
Until the work became about us taking the next step to heal together and to drop those guards fully.
And so a few years back we came together as though for the first time. And from the first few meetings our souls began to sing a song to each other about love, commitment of lifetimes and a deep connection that was entwined through time and space.
🙏🥰I found myself in the stillness of moments together looking into his eyes and saying, “YES.”
He would chuckle and say be careful what you say yes to.
And I would just respond with that was from my soul.
My soul wants you to know that I am a yes. 🙏🥰
I KNEW WHAT I WAS SAYING YES TO…
IT WAS YES TO UNITING WITH HIM FULLY.
GOING ALL IN.
I could feel the collapse of thousands of years upon us, melding us together and the knowing that still stirs through my core today each moment is brilliantly delicious and confirming.
Now my outside world is readjusting to my heart and soul.
There is much cleanup and repairs that are unway in my business life, my friendships, my family and even shadows that lurk from my past. All that learning about self, those lessons that had to be given, they all bare with them a weight that is being purged.
Almost as karmic debt from a millennia is being wiped away as he and I go deeper.
Standing here in the light of all this love, basking in the reality that we are together and that this sacredness that I feel is precious beyond measure.
Bringing with it the desire to protect.
The need to consistently make a stand against the shadows that arise and try to steal the brilliance, the love, the connection.
My thought this morning while walking, hand in hand with him,
This is an intimacy.
And intimacy by definition is about a depth in vulnerability, openness and connection that can only be developed to its fullness when both parties are merged spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically.
As history reveals, such a sacredness in anything is often under attack. We humans as much as we hunger for love, connection, sacredness, our soulmates or anything that feels of the divine nature, we also have urges to destroy and cause chaos when we witness others than ourselves enjoying these delicacies of life.
There is a recognition that we have to have in relationships or anything that we are striving for and believe that we have encountered. This is the recognition of territorialism vs. jealousy.
and protection vs. control.
👉One is from soul, the other from ego. 👈
By doing the inner work on self and aligning to your truth, to your core you will be able to identify with greater ease which you are operating from.
You will feel and witness your inner realms and be able to address if you are just trying to control, please, manage, manipulate or avoid.
OR if you are addressing issues, shadows and maskings that have covered you for years and karmic debts that must be washed away in order for the union with such a sacred relationship to manifest and become rock solid.
However THIS my beautiful reader requires your desire to step forth in courage and meet yourself.
To see yourself in all your shadows and light.
To embrace your inner demons and your past, even finding gratitude for all the unpleasantries that you have experienced.
You must capture your truth.
And the only way to do this is to dive deep into who you are at your soul’s core.
you elevate yourself in love and thus call in your soulmate.
Ready to and able to see you.
Want to learn more on how to call in your soulmate love and unite with self at this depth so you too can heal, gain life fulfillment and find that joy that you crave?
Reach out to me today in the comments to find out more.
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