I share this tale with you today,
because it tells so much of our desire and need to know.
It show’s how difficult it is to just receive.
Receive without question.
And to let life be magical,
and full.
Yes, here I sit on day three of a mystery.
It is a BIG mystery at that.
Let me share with you the gist and what I have learned in the process.
Friday, like any day, I sat in my writing spot.
I wrote and people came through my space,
sharing their day,
their ideas and challenges.
I sat there and enjoyed them.
I enjoyed the moment.
And when the stillness came,
I wrote.
While writing the door bell rang,
my son answered and came back with a lovely bouquet of white roses and lilies.
He sat them down on my table and I read the note attached.
“I hope this makes an ordinary day, extraordinary! – Signed Me”
My heart smiled.
As I love getting flowers.
And I was just thinking how I needed new ones on my table.
It smiled because with these lovely flowers came a feeling of love.
I felt desired.
I felt like someone,
this Me character, knew what I needed in that moment.
As my days before had been challenging and overwhelming.
And here was just a breath of air.
And a very accurate desire to make my ordinary,
extraordinary.
So whom was the me?
Whom could I give my thanks too?
My heart felt it was one person,
the flowers before me,
the bouquet choice,
seemed to say his name.
And so….
I sent a text in that moment,
as this person was out of town and state,
and I sent a text,
saying “Thank you, you just made me smile.”
It was received, but not acknowledged that it was a comment about the flowers.
And so,
I persisted.
Like any good woman,
who wants to know who gifted her.
Who wants to say thank you.
I persisted.
I sent a picture.
with a comment of, “Aren’t they lovely?”
And in response,
I got “Wow! yes they are. “
After sharing some, it came about that this man claimed not to have sent them my way.
In shock,
as it was right up his line of action,
I found myself on the mystery bus.
And am still there.
three days later,
after asking almost all my old lovers,
and asking current men I share intimacies with,
and asking my children and friends,
clients even,
I have come up with a loss as to whom,
sent these flowers.
And why does it matter anyway?
Why do I care so much?
I claim it is because I need and desire to give my thanks.
And that is partially true.
The reality is,
outside of the turn on that I have from the courting,
outside of the smile that it brought me,
outside of the romantic mystery,
and I do love a good mystery.
I want to KNOW.
Because I feel like I need to know.
But is that true?
What will it benefit?
What will it do?
Perhaps, the gift of the mystery,
is in the not knowing.
It is in the surrender.
Perhaps,
this soul is asking for my surrender,
and asking me to just receive.
Much like the universe.
Much like God.
The request is simple.
Surrender and Receive.
Everything can be yours in so doing this.
But here I sit on day three.
Looking at my beautiful flowers.
Still smiling.
Still questioning.
And in my questioning,
I have discovered the answer.
The answer like with anything is always right in front of us.
Our soul always knows.
And the clues are right there.
The clues of heart and soul.
Of soul alignment.
Of getting EXACTLY what we ask for.
And just letting it be.
Be the beautiful, loving act that it is.
Letting that smile be seen.
The surrender be felt.
Yes here.
Here is where I sit.
I sit now,
still with a lingering question.
But knowing that I am being given my hearts desire.
And that,
that is all I ever need to know.
My gratitude will reach this “Me” whom sent the flowers.
It is felt already I am sure.
And this “Me” with a hidden smile,
in their knowing,
I thank for the soul lesson.
The lesson in receiving.
The lesson in true giving.
I feel great respect for this “me”
because they are not needing the pat on the back.
They are but just holding space.
And in that space they too are receiving.
And so,
the lesson remains.
Let It Go.
Let it go, and surrender to your receiving.
There is no need to know.
There is no need to thank.
Not verbally.
The gratitude needed comes from the heart.
And this can be felt from any distance.
And now I have a question,
a question for you,
and I encourage you to inquire.
As it will change your world.
“Where are you not surrendering to your desire to receive?”
Where are you holding yourself back from all that you want, because you are scared of not knowing what will come?
Let this case of the mystery flower delivery,
be a lesson to surrender to the mysteries of God’s blessing and those that are used to manifest them.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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