Clarity and space.
Sometimes you just need one of these to get the other,
and the other to get one.
The thing we must acquire in life in order to manifest all that we desire and want is a feeling of satisfaction.
How do we achieve this though?
Through clarity and space.
I don’t know if you are anything like me,
but I often find it difficult to ask for what I need.
Not for what I want,
but for what I need.
There is a difference.
I have a difficult time asking for what I need because I don’t want to be a bother to those I care for.
I tend to mother all over everyone in my life and big sister the rest.
Call it only child syndrome?
Or oldest daughter syndrome?
But I tend to find myself in moments where I am so full that there is no room for God to give me any more.
I find myself in spaces where I can take on no more.
My mental, emotional and even physical space is dangerously low.
Kind of like my cell phone and computer like to tell me frequently about their space too.
Hmmmm….. maybe that is the universe telling me something huh?
And the issue with being so full in life is that it is hard to have clarity.
It is harder to find satisfaction with things.
And it is even harder to manifest the things that you want because simply put….
there is no effing room for them!
Well, here is where I have been the last 90 days.
OMFG!
I am so full.
I feel like I have eaten Thanksgiving dinner in every breath I take. My body feels heavy.
My energy feels stagnant.
I am in a spiritual food coma.
Or an abundance coma.
Where things are now knocking at my door and then looking in and saying, oh no,
No….no….no…..
you are a hoarder of all that energy.
You hoard giving too much .
You hoard not saying no when you need to or want to.
You hoard not asking for space.
For time.
For this or that.
So, now you get to sit there and feel full.
Oh, so full and unsatisfied.
So like any good manifesting queen,
I go after what I want.
I am a smart woman.
I know how to do this thing.
And so I go ask for what I want some more.
And I ask some more.
And I “claim to be taking time for myself”
but instead I am really off giving time and energy to someone I care about.
Putting my focus on them.
Giving a sh*t too much.
And allowing my time.
My energy.
My space.
My boundaries.
To just get trampled for the sake of love….
Or so I claim it to be that.
But truly its not about love.
It is about me not wanting to look greedy.
Not 100% believing that I am worthy of asking for my needs.
Not wanting to let anyone down.
“Cus God forbid that I let someone else down, right?”
And then after all of that,
you know what happens?
Frustration.
Fear.
Loss of energy.
Loss of focus.
Clarity.
Sanity.
And I find myself feeling lost.
Feeling hopeless.
And feeling like none of it matters anyway.
And so what is the answer?
How can one in these shoes get back to stable?
How can one move from this overfull state and get into satisfaction?
Pretty simple love.
Just demand SPACE.
Move yourself into a state of space.
Away from all who are calling on you,
even if they mean the best by their checking in,
even if they are sharing love,
even if they are concerned and wanting to help.
Move the F-CK AWAY from them and get some SPACE.
Realize that that is the ONLY way that you will be able to have what you want.
And to feel satisfied and get manifesting your dreams.
You don’t have to step away forever.
You just need a vacation.
A detox.
Space.
So just ask for it.
And if you suck at asking like I do.
Then let that only child syndrome that some of us have surface in another way and stamp your feel and pitch a fit and DEMAND IT!
Because darlin’ you are worth it.
And your dreams are too.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”