A WOMAN’S WORTH…
Today I woke feeling pathetic, unworthy, as though I have no value to this thing called life.
I sat here this morning over breakfast doing the thing that I possibly detest the most…
Telling my partner my fears, sharing my anxiety, telling him how he deserves a better partner, how woeful I felt I was and that life did not want to accept me for me.
I quickly came up with many ideas as to why I was in this state of being from my hormones to a mid life crisis and everything in between, however as the day progresses and I reach out to my mentor to see what insight she might have for me I come back into terms with that everything is just as it is supposed to be as scared as I might feel in the moment.
You see I am in transition.
I am dieing.
I know that in the next year of my existence here on earth that everything that I currently know, everything that I currently am, my business, my home, my relationship, my goals will even be transformed.
I feel like Schrodinger’s cat.
Am I dead?
Am I alive?
IDK.
In the midst of this transition I have lost myself in so many ways.
And as I lose who I once was in all areas of my life, I stand here questioning what will become of ME?
It is so easy to just lean into what the world tells me I “should” or “need” do and be.
I have done that for years in different ways, and every time I do, sure I learn, I expand, I have success to some degree, but I never feel that unbounded love and appreciation for my life nor for self unless I basically give the middle finger to what society is telling me and JUST DO ME.
Doing me take courage, however.
Doing me requires that I look past all my fear and failure.
Doing me means that I stop worrying and start trusting at a deeper level than what I can even imagine possible.
To actually KNOW that I am supported and that everything is going my way even though I don’t think so at this current moment.
The THING that I have come to realize over this time of death and rebirth is that we women face some serious struggles around our worth.
What makes us worthy in today’s world?
I scroll through my social media and I see beautiful, strong, intelligent and talented women leaning in on all their feminine magic of the physical. I see women whose messages are powerful, flaunting a little extra cleavage, doing yoga in their g-strings, taking pictures with sultry eyes in bed and so much more.
I hear other talented brilliant women talking about how they need to get married and have a kid so they can have importance in this world.
To be taken seriously even.
I see women, striving to look younger and older, depending on what they perceive as desirable.
Many women turn toward their pocket books, their savings and investments to prove that they are worthy of something more than what they have.
The house.
The car.
The money in the bank.
The marriage.
The kids.
The body.
How orgasmic she is.
Her youthfulness.
Her wisdom.
Her education level.
What her career is.
Where she has traveled.
What she does for her community and church or family.
These things are ALL what we women of today strive to be 1000% in.
And somehow we try to do it alone.
We believe that it is up to us.
That we have to make it happen or we are pathetic if any of it does not come to fruition.
And I mean A-L-L of it!
The “reality” is that no one can do it all and be successful 100% of the time on 100% of the damn thing that this world’s current society puts into our playfield and tells us that we must get right, do right, be successful in and have.
That’s the most important thing, HAVE.
And that is what our worthiness is based on, what we have or not.
We translate this idea of worthiness over to value.
And we are lacking in any area of our lives, or if we are not top our game, showing up like the bada*s babe that we want to be, we condemn ourselves in some fashion or form.
We totally forget about the things that matter.
We forget to appreciate all that we have done and survived in life.
We forget that we are imperfectly perfect and always a work in progress, AND that, that is okay.
When we are down on our luck, in a bad mood, wrapped up in victim consciousness, feeling as defeated and lost and as though the most value we provide is to be an ATM machine to our kids and maid (mind you we may be sucking at that too in the moment), that those pampered little brats are here because of our strong AF vajayjay’s and determination.
We went through excruciating pain to bring that pain in the a*s brat into this world.
We forget that the man who may look at us and wonder, “why is she so moody and grumpy, not in the mood today,” is laying in our bed because we made him feel like king of the MF world somewhere along the line and he values our smile, our strength, our loving eyes, and our emotions that tap him into his own inner realms that he can’t access without our tender feminine heart.
We forget that our compassion and ability to feel in this life is a blessing to all those who entrust us with their fear, suffering, hope, dreams and more.
That our wisdom that comes from deep within, the intuition that we have no reason for, but just know is a gift from spirit. For all of time, the feminine has been considered closer to God, more aligned and open to spirit and the universe than the masculine. So why do we question ourselves today?
We women are magical.
We are powerful.
We are ONE with the universe.
But we choose to deny our alignment.
We turn away from all that is natural and designed for us in an attempt to be masculine and bare all the burdens of such.
No wonder we have a society of beautiful, powerful, intelligent and wise women lost in who they are and what they offer this thing called life.
For where our worth lies….
We do not value ourselves.
And until we do…
We will remain lost and always aiming to please the world that we live in instead of who we are.
It’s time my beautiful AF bada*s woman to won your value and worth and know who you really are at a deep soul level.
You have all the answers for your happy ever after.
You just have to trust that you are supported by who you were born to be.
YOU.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Existing
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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