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Stop Loosing Yourself In The Goodbye Beautiful.

Doesn’t F-cking Matter!
People say goodbye all the time, in so many ways.
People turn away from you,
some you feel,
some you don’t notice.

But at the end of the day,
It doesn’t f-cking matter either way.

They came into your life for a reason.
This you can be sure

How long someone hangs with you baby,
Well that is upto your spiritual contract with them.
What do I mean by that?

What kind of crazy new age concept is a spiritual contract anyway?

In this instance I am referring to the lessons you gain from the relationship. And EVERY relationship teaches us something.

Its important to realize that we are in relationship WITH EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in our lives too.
So get right with that RIGHT NOW gorgeous.

Those short meetups, hook ups, chatting and getting no where with people that pop through your life and wonder WTF was that about?
Was there to present some lesson or deeper understanding into your life,
Into who you are,
And how you are VIBING.

And when they leave.
You can say it doesn’t matter anyway.
And it doesn’t!

As long as you got from them what you were meant to.

Were you present enough in that relationship,
No matter how short lived it was or not,
No matter the drama,
The trauma,
The heartbreak.

Did you get your lesson beautiful?
Did you?

Cuz if you chose to get caught up in the ego of what happened,
and you missed the lesson,
Then baby,
You are going to have to rinse and repeat.

And that’s why you run into the same people over and over again just with a different face,
Different story.

And when you get caught up in the ego of the loss,
You loose something much more significant and valuable then that relationship.
You loose a piece of you.
When you sit a stare at the people who are unliking or unfollowing you on social media,
When you pay more attention to who is not paying attention to you,
When you wait for the lack of response from that person you went out on a date with,
Or hooked up with,
When you get caught up in the certainly that so and so will apologize or come back,
When you wait….

You loose yourself.
And at the end of your days beautiful,
It doesn’t f-cking matter anyway.

Their goodbye.
Thier shut down.
Thier blindness.
Thier disconnect.

None of it matters.
And you deserve so much better.
But here is the thing,
YOU have to allow yourself to have better.
YOU have to stop making yourself available for that shiz.
YOU have to stop resisting your beauty,
Your greatness,
Your value.
And you have to get THAT lesson.

Because baby,
The best is yet to come.

It is!
You just have to change what your looking for.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
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Tired of Wonderland? Exhausted from Crazy? – Just Own Who You Are!

Some days you feel like you are running around like Alice in wonderland,
not knowing what direction to go or what the best choice could be. You start out on one path only to find yourself running down another,
and feeling as though it is never ending and only making you more lost in life.

No matter what you attempt,
things go to hell. But you put your head down and you just keep going. Each step forward seems to be ten steps back and around and around you go,
in this land of nowhere,
feeling lost but looking for something more.

You know that feeling.
That feeling of uncertainty.
That feeling of overwhelm.
You are damned if you do and damned if you don’t,
so why bother?
But you must bother because someone, somewhere is waiting on you.
And you have responsibilities.
People, bills and time to think of.
But there you are a circus in your own head,
and you just keep going, lost and confused as if on some psychedelic trip,
that lost its luster many years ago.

Fear is permeating from your bones.
Your flesh reeks of your uncertainty.
Your head lowers, your back hunches.
You are scared.
Scared in this darkness that you have created.
It’s a mad house in here.

And so,
so you focus in.
You get dedicated,
committed and claim that you know.
You know that things MUST change.
You know that this cannot continue.
You know that you are drowning,
no matter how pretty the picture may be that the world around see’s,
you are drowning.
And so things must change.
And you claim that they will.
You look for guidance.
You beg for direction.
You fall to your knee’s and pray.

But there you are,
another day.
Waking up in stillness.
Waking up to the madness that is lurking.
Hiding from view,
until you look the other way.
Buried there in the mess of your life.
You choose to ignore.
And just as quickly as you had committed,
to focus,
to conquer,
to make that change.
You find yourself drifting,
in a lull that this life can offer.
A lull of comfort.
Of average and ordinary.
There you are, dancing in the midst of the circus.

Until one day, when once again,
you cannot help but look deeper.
A whisper, a ghost from yesterday,
something magical alerts you to look into the chaos.
To explore.
And then you discover.
You discover the wonder,
of why?
Why are you on this never ending ride,
this ride that keep taking you,
far from what you desire.
It side tracks you and comforts you,
it scares you and spins.
Until you once again,
cannot tell what is up or down.
You are dizzy.
You are fearful.
You are lost once again.

Falling,
falling to the ground,
you make the commitment again.
To focus,
to stop settling,
stop avoiding and forgetting.
You are sick of this ride.
This nightmare you are living.
It is time to proclaim.
Time to not forget.

It is time that you stand firmly.
Decide what you want.
Climb up and out,
out of this chaos,
out of this circus,
this mad house in your head.
The suffering,
the shaming,
the guilt and the fear.
They are nothing more than words,
words that you give life to and dance with.
You are the gate keeper, the ring leader and owner.
You are the BOSS.
The Queen and the creator.
So stand up right there.
Stand there in your POWER.
Claim once and for all,
you will take no more of the misery.
No more excuses, no more ignoring,
no more story telling,
no more lies and regrets.

It is time for you,
for you to OWN WHO YOU ARE.
It is time!
Let go of that ticket,
its a circus you have been too,
one you need no longer attend.
So step away from this story line,
and write the one from your SOUL.

What does your SOUL expression truly look like?
If people, opinions, judgments and fears no longer stood in your way, what would your life look like and who would you be?

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Do you relate to having the crazy run your world?
Cannot seem to find the motivation, dedication, or certainty to step fully into all that you know you were born to be? And yet the desire to become something so much more is just there CALLING to you. Begging you to take the step.

I fully understand this fear, this chaos and crazy.
It is a path that many have walked, have had to conquer, but when you taste who you really are, experience your truth and start stepping into this you will discover a courage, a passion and faith that you did not know that you had.

You deserve to live a beautiful life.
A life of THRIVING!

Let’s explore the steps to greatness today.

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Hard to Breathe.

Some moments seem too hard to breathe through.

 
Have you ever felt like this?
 
You want to run, but there is no place to hide.
You want to escape this world, this life because your heart is so heavy, so full of pain and it feel’s like there is no purpose behind any of it.
 
The more you try to just go with it, or let it go,
The more you smile and just take steps seemingly forward ,
The more you inquire and sit with the pain in quiet moments alone,
The more you attempt to do WHATEVER it takes to allow yourself to carry on,
 
You feel yourself retracting even more.
You feel yourself shrinking into nothing.
You feel yourself letting go of who you were born to be,
Who you long to be.
 
This is what my last year has been like in so many ways.
And in truth, if I get REALLY REAL with you here, it has been longer.
 
Where did my heart get scared and decide it was not safe?
When did my soul escape the confounds of this being?
When did I turn away?
 
Away from me.
Away from my core.
Away from my love.
Away from my wings.
Away from my worthiness.
 
As I inquire deeper and deeper, I just feel more lost, more overwhelmed, more HOPELESS.
 
In these times of self-awareness I stand with a great uncertainty.
And I SEE just how this life long agony of my heart and soul have lead me from moment to moment.
 
Choice to choice.
 
I see that this pain has been a catalyst and a destroyer.
It has helped me to meet myself at deeper levels.
It has shown me some of the darkest shadows of myself.
It has gotten me intimately connected to my desires.
It has cradled me as I cry and fear that I will NEVER be ENOUGH and yet shudder with the concern of BEING TO MUCH.
 
The dagger in my chest that is pushing itself ALL the WAY through my soul ONLY has life in me giving it mine.
 
It has no purpose of it’s own, it is only here bleeding out my light.
It has NOTHING.
 

NOTHING without my attachment to it.

 
So why then do I desire to hold on to it and keep pushing it deeper into my heart?
 
Why then do I find a fascination in the pain?
 
Why then do I believe I CANNOT exist without this pain?
 
I fear being pain free.
I fear being free.
I fear being whole.
I fear me.
 
I fear my greatness.
I fear my light.
I fear my heart.
I fear my worthiness.
 
The moments that are seemingly too hard to breathe through are the exact moments that expand us.
 
It is these La’ Petite Mort of the heart that we gain GREAT insight and we are
 

Rebirthed.

 
We become a new version of ourselves by our own accepting.
Our own honoring.
 
This that feel’s like it will certainly cause us to parish, most certainly will do JUST THAT.
 
It will cause the old version of us to no longer exist.
And if we embrace what it is here for then we will SHINE BRIGHTER than before.
 
Love deeper than before.
Laugh more than before.
Expand our wings wider than before.
Shine brighter than before.
 
These breathless moments, where we can not capture the air that we need for survival as we are.
 

These are our opportunities for GREATNESS.

 
 
And remember,
 
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Looking for Mr. Forever – The pressure we SHOULD NOT feel.

I know you want someone to hold you close and handle your heart gently, but put love on hold. You don’t need someone to fall asleep beside. Not yet. You can wait for that.

Finding your forever person shouldn’t be your main priority. Finding yourself should come first.

Find out what brings your passionate side to the surface. Find out what stirs the adrenaline that’s been hibernating in your veins. Find out what convinces you to stay up until 3 AM and wake up at 5 AM. Find out what puts the suicidal thoughts to rest and gives you a burst of appreciation for the living.

Find out why the girl in the mirror looks so sad when she’s alone. What does she want? What is she missing? If it’s a who, what type of person would fill the gap where her smile is supposed to be? Is it a best friend that can make her laugh when she only has the impulse to scream? Is it a semi-stranger to drink with to erase the pain? Is it a mystery voice that tells her they believe in her, that they’re proud of her?

Find out what squeezes your heart until it skips a beat. Find out what sends flutters through your spine. Find out what awakens the butterflies in your stomach. Find out what makes the cliches come to life.

Find out who you are and what you want out of this chaotic world, because you’ve only scratched the surface of your cravings. You want a house in the Hamptons, but what will make that house a home? Degrees to hang on the wall, a baby girl, a puppy flopping through the yard? You want a job in journalism, but what are you hoping to gain from it? Aside from money. Aside from security. What is it you’re hoping life blesses you with?

Find out what you want this universe to deliver to you. And don’t be afraid to sound greedy or selfish or unrealistic. Don’t restrain yourself from having oversized fantasies, because you’ll find important pieces of yourself hidden amongst those dreams. You’ll find out what drives you. What type of human you truly are.

Find out what inspires you, motivates you. Find out what gives you the energy to push through on your worst days. Find out what you’re doing here on this earth, because no matter how worthless you feel, you have a purpose. You have a reason you exist — and it’s beautiful. You’re beautiful.

You have a lifetime to find your forever person, so find yourself first. You deserve to meet her.

ORIGINAL ARTICLE– You Have A Lifetime To Find Your Person, So Find Yourself First by Holly Riordan