STOP WORKING THROUGH YOUR SH*T – IT’S JUST AN EXCUSE TO BE YOU.

A spiritual path is not meant to “fix” who you are but instead to “reveal” who you are.

 

So stop your MF processing around the path.

How much do you have stop and stare at the rocks, the weeds, the trampled flowers, the horse sh*t that was dropped and anything else that you deem to not be pleasant and an imperfection to your path?

 

Granted I am not telling you to disregard your sh*t.

That would not be good for sure,

and we can easily look out into the world of the energetically blind and deaf who do just this ALL THE TIME, and see what A-holes they are,

but what I am wanting to bring your awareness too is that perhaps you are actually using your “processing” of your sh*t as an excuse to not move forward.

As a reason a.k.a excuse/blame of the outside world and past events/people so that you can lean out of your power right now and just sit in your victim status.

 

Maybe, just maybe you are thinking that all is forgiven in your “working through it” and that because you are oh so responsible and aware of your sh*t that the world should just bow to you and be okay with you NOT GETTING THROUGH YOUR SH*T…

 

Because you have been working’ it.

You have been doing the damn THING that you know you need to do,

it is not your fault that it’s just not seeming to get through to the core.

 

Well, I get all that.

 

Virgo here!

Processor here!

Hyper-Critical of self for sure here!

Analyzer and Overly responsible for self and the world here!

 

Yeppers, those are all me.

And they are always me even when I write up musings like this one handing you your sh*t back.

I write this because I feel responsible,

I want to help,

I am speaking to myself as well,

and I get the “awoken mindset” of processing is key to growth and transformation.

 

After all, you cannot change the things that you are not aware of, right?

 

Right.

 

So now that you are aware of your sh*t,

and if you are a relatively intelligent person,

or at least can get some basic common sense,

then WTF makes you believe that by standing in the epicenter of your sh*t and focusing on it, digging through it, and smelling it much longer is going to ever clear the path and make you perfect?

 

Let’s just ask,

“Do you honestly believe that the path or you were ever intended on being perfect according to our idea of perfection?”

 

Would you ever learn a damn thing if the path was perfect?

Would you really be happy if you believed yourself to be perfect?

Would you really want a relationship with a said “perfect” person?

 

Life is about clarifying who we are.

Life is about growth and expansion, and growth and expansion ONLY occurs when we can learn, gain knowledge and insight, have experiences, and gain wisdom.

 

Wisdom among other things comes from mistakes.

A.k.a learning.

 

Or you could also say CONTRAST.

 

Contrast is another way of looking at the life that we are manifesting and the life that we desire to manifest.

What we perceive as good and bad.

 

And we cannot have, nor even truly know what we want if we do not ever experience what we do not want at some level. When we experience these spaces of growth and learning in the contrast of life it makes us want for something better and it sets us to a grander vision for who we are.

 

Expanding us.

 

That expansion creates room for us to manifest in what we learned that we wanted from the contrast that was provided.

And we easily manifest it when we RELAX into the knowing that it is ours when we sooth ourselves back into a feel good place in our hearts and thoughts.

 

Now let me ask you this…

 

How does processing make you feel?

Does it excite you?

Is processing and over analyzing your every pile of sh*t soothing to your soul? your thoughts and feelings?

 

Or have you discovered that all the processing out is actually just causing you stress because NOW you really see where you have been f-cking up and the more you focus on your f-ck ups, the more insecure you are feeling in who you are, your path and your choices?

 

I am betting it is the latter here. (Just sayin’)

 

So what are you to do if you don’t want to keep repeating some sh*t on your path,

but you now sorta realize that your hyper focus to your sh*t is causing you to remain in your sh*t and even creating a neediness and lack of personal responsibility that is in turn making you out of integrity with WHO YOU REALLY ARE?

 

Are you ready for it?

 

Here is my big answer for ya.

Stop trying to be like someone else.

Stop trying to get it all right.

Stop fearing who you are and JUST DO YOU.

Be YOU.

 

You have got to accept and love you in all your sh*t,

or you will run around this life with everyone avoiding you because YOU ARE AVOIDING YOU.

 

If you are looking to the outside world to give you direction as to who you are then that is the sh*t pile you need to turn and walk away from right now.

 

Find your soothing thoughts.

Appreciate the contrast of your life.

Follow what feels legitimately good to your soul,

and stop acting out of fear of losing people or things.

 

It has you over processing you.

 

And that,

that will get you into a pile of pity, victim sh*t like no other.

 

So JUST STOP.

 

SAY IT WITH ME….

 

MY OVER PROCESSING AND SELF-CRITICISM IS KEEPING ME OUT OF PERSONAL INTEGRITY AND SOUL ALIGNMENT.

 

LET THAT SH*T GO.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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Yours and others?

 

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The Skinny on the “How To”

Holy Sh*t!

You know these moment’s where you just go WTF am I doing?

Yepper’s that has been me this morning.
God most certainly wants me to acknowledge my perceived need that I have to know the HOW before receiving my DESIRE.

I have picked up on my statement of , how twice so far in a conversation about property investment.

I love the idea of the investment property,
I love the idea of the cash flow that it could bring into my life,
I love the idea of venturing out into this land of real-estate investing.

My logical mind though keeps saying, ” Yeah, yeah, that is GREAT! But how?”

Where is the money to invest coming from?
How can you make an offer before you have all your ducks lined up and accounted for?
How can you say, “Yes let’s do this or that, and NOT yet even have any concept as to the HOW?”

WOW!  OMFG!  WOW.

Is this my brain saying that?

I cannot even BELIEVE I am thinking it and having the negative, doubtful thoughts which are creating my emotional response to follow to it,

But ….

I AM.

So, here is the gig…

The whole real-estate thing is neither here nor there in truth. It can effect my household and over all finances and well-being in that area, but it is not my actual passion, focus or desire. It belongs to someone else that I love and care fore and that I support.

Which makes it really bad that I am being the doubting Thomas in my energy and inquiry, but because I feel partly invested into the impact of what it can do for over all family life and I want this person to have success for themselves, my FEAR is creeping up and letting its negative little head be seen and heard.

SO I can say that I am in this state of needing the HOW –
Because I care so much.

EGO.

That is all ego though.
It is not because I care so much, it is not because I of anything other than my program of feeling like like nothing can happen unless you have a plan for it first.

Funny, because this is not how I run my personal life and business.

No, when it comes to what I am working on or setting as an intention, desire or goal, I JUST GO FOR IT.

Or do I?

Here is my epiphany of this morning….

I have trained myself to think that I am JUST GOING FOR IT, without reservation or need to know the HOW, when in fact somewhere inside of me, my ego is flashing me with “How, How, How!”

The how causes constriction in my being through the introduction of doubt and possible failure.

The how causes resistance to my desired life and outcomes by bluntly saying, “You ain’t gotta freakin’ clue as to the how, so how is it to ever work?”

The how rests itself up on a pedestal and looks down at me and assures me that if I were worthy, then I would KNOW the HOW.

Well, F*CK!!!!!

Now the TRUTH is much different.
The truth smiles and says, “You got this because you are f*cking Bada*s!”

The truth say’s lean in and breath in your desires, your wants and your hopes, they are placed within your heart to be not just chased but received, God put them there for your taking.

The truth get’s itself up under our bums and PUSHES US UP, so that we can meet and match our desires and get ready to open to more blessing.

The challenge is that we are scared of our GREATNESS.

The challenge is that we for more comfort in remaining lost then we do in stepping into our soul calling.

When we face the expression that our soul wants and needs to let be seen, to let shine, it requires us to FEEL.

And feeling is scary, so we say that to feel is to be weak.
We destroy our feelings by covering them with medications, alcohol, addictions of all sorts including work and religion.

And then we ASK,
“Where is my path?”

We say,
” I just feel so lost, so unconnected, disillusioned and empty.”

In order to come back to soul though we have to STOP RESISTING what is right within ourselves.

The message of heart.
The message of emotion.

Or we resign ourselves to ignoring our feelings and emotions and REMAIN a lost soul in this thing called life that we are refusing to LIVE.

So yes, my epiphany for today is just this…

I am guilt of buying the bullsh*t of my ego and still thinking I need the HOW before I step fully into my purpose.

Step fully into my radiance.
Step fully into my light.
Step fully into me soul calling
Step fully into being the BadA*s that I know I can be and that God is waiting for me to Step Into.

I am sharing this intimacy with you.
I am sharing that I am often scared to SAY YES to myself.
Scared to SAY YES to my soul calling.
To my heart.
And LISTEN.
Listen to my emotions, my feelings and to that soft voice deep inside.

You know the one.
the one that you try and bury,
but it will not go away.
The one that keeps sharing your desires.
Keeps sharing your purpose.
Keeps nudging you to Be-DO-Have more!

YES.

You know the one.

I COMMIT to be my BadA*s from here on out.

Do You?

Remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Why You Need To STOP Following Me…NOW!

I am writing this to invite you to STOP following me.

To unsubscribe from my newsletter, my Facebook and anywhere else that you may be checking in on my work.

YES, I am inviting you to say GOOD BYE Kendal.

Here is why.

2018 is a year of you could say transformation, but in truth it is a year of me saying YES to my AUTHENTIC SELF and my desire to be a crusader. My burning passion to speak the words that I have been holding back for my entire life that NOW want to be birthed from my lips and my finger tips. It is a year where you will see me make harsh but loving statements that may push you far past your comfort zones and even giving me the middle finger.

It is a year where you may say, “ OMG! Kendal went and got saved!” – LOL

And perhaps I did.

Or perhaps the possibility is that I am just choosing to allow 2018 to be the year that I STOP standing in the shadow of shame around my spiritual beliefs and desires and what I have come to learn from walking a path of CERTAINTY and opening to the blessings that are all around.

Perhaps, the possibility of 2018 is that my soul can no longer sit still and be quiet and give what society and many of my readers and followers “think” they need or want, where the focus is on sex and how best to stroke a clit or a cock.

Because ANYONE who has ever coached with me or worked with me in any capacity can bear testimony that my teachings are 98% based in CONSCIOUSNESS training NOT sexual skills. 

 

Here is the thing, no matter what title I give myself, I coach the same. I speak the same. I praise the same. I work on the same issues, the same blockages, the same fear based thinking and habits that DESTROY your relationships, your intimacy, your sex, your ability to experience abundance, peace, joy, connection, health and vitality. NONE of this is changing, because it is my calling to help restore consciousness and connection between humankind and the creator ( whatever name you use). The principles and soul technology that I coach on remain the same. It has always been and always will be at the core of what I do and how I live my own life. 

The difference and the REASON you need to STOP FOLLOWING me now, is because I am going to be a base ball bat.

I am NOT going to apologize for stating things the way I know them.

I am NOT going to hold back any longer.

I am NOT going to cower in the ego based fear of how you may receive me or not.

I am NOT going to allow the programs that many of us subscribe too, conquer me another day around how I should look, act, speak, teach,  or coach.

So here is the thing…

IF YOU CHOOSE, to keep following me, you may grow even more discontent with your life and what you have CHOSEN to SETTLE for.

You may get very mad at my emails, my video’s, my conscious coffee’s, my articles, courses, workshops and talks.

You may start to ask yourself tough questions, such as, Why am I not happy?” – ” Why do I never feel truly connected, seen or loved?” – ” What am I really searching for?” – ” Why does my life feel like a chore?” and “Is this really all there is?”

You may start to observe things from a deeper state of calm, where the mind chatter starts to be put to bay.

You may start to truly feel life and yourself.

You may discover an orgasmic life, where you cannot help but smile from the joy coming from deep within.

You may start loving yourself.  Forgive yourself and others.

You may awaken your compassionate heart.

You may actually start seeing the MAGIC in your daily life and OMG! You may actually EXPECT miracles to occur on a regular basis.

You may start living  instead of just existing.

You may awaken one morning and say, ” It is TIME. Time for a change. Time to open. Time to love again. Time to STOP FEARING.” 

Yes, you may do these things, but they will come with the price of having your ego pushed around. Your stubborn thinking patterns rearranged and the mental masturbation practices that you have grown so comfortable with as your truth and logic stripped down to what they really are: ILLUSION.

You see, I am trying to SAVE YOU the heartache of following me any longer. Why fill the space in your email, or on this screen with words that will cause you to QUESTION your reality. Your Thinking. Your heart. Your trust in something greater than yourself.

Why follow someone who believes so strongly in this mission, ” Be the change you wish to see in the world.”

Why continue to follow someone who BELIEVES YOU, yes you, deserve GREATNESS.

That is  your natural state of being and that God desires nothing more than to grant it to you.

But FIRST….

You must say GOODBYE.

Goodbye to ego.

Good bye to fear.

Goodbye to doubt.

Goodbye to those things that hold you back.

Goodbye to your disbelief that God wants you to be HAPPY and have what you desire most.

And that maybe your DESIRE,  to JUST be AVERAGE and just get through the next day.

So in that case you may need to say goodbye Kendal….

Because, I want to THRIVE!

I want to call down my blessings. And every day, I am granted the beauty of magical experiences, beautiful people and opportunities. Many reasons to smile. And even more reasons to share my joy. My faith, my life work, my heart and my soul. 

Will you stay or will you go?

I cannot say.

You have free will.

Choose NOW. Because NOW is all you have, all you will ever have. Do not build your life of fear of tomorrow, but on the blessing of TODAY.

STOP Existing – START Living, This coaching is for Grown A*s Believers.